Saturday, June 23
twenty third. june. twenty twelve.
twenty second of june.never knew this day would mean anything.
until that day.
eleven years ago.
unanswered questions till today.
she decided.
to make the last decision in life.
one i used to admire.
one i used to think was very courageous.
but maybe it wasn't actually courageous at all.
swensen's sticky chewy choc ice cream.
a whole new meaning.
causeway point.
a whole new meaning.
ferrero rocher.
a whole new meaning.
church camp.
filled with different kinds of emotions.
still trying to figure them out.
emotional.
struggle.
learning.
assurance.
seeing.
unworthy.
sinful.
a part.
apart.
another colleague left.
one and a half years.
take care.
God's with the three of you.
glad for lunch together that day.
sometimes things aren't what they seem to be.
the external masks the internal.
a masquerade.
going to visit her.
it's been long.
maybe about a year.
thankful that a friend's going with me.
another small card this year maybe.
she's struggling.
with herself.
her identity.
her worth.
who she is in Christ.
Lord, teach me to just walk beside.
love comes when manipulation stops.
when you think more about the other person.
than about his or her reactions to you.
let go and let God.
that's what He's teaching me.
i'm His.
He is my shepherd.
i shall not want.
keep me broken and humble at your feet.
respect.
authority.
visually impaired.
involvement with the research project.
taught me to have less fear.
to have more understanding.
to ask questions that matter.
he held.
and trusted.
and didn't use his stick.
that's how we ought to trust the Lord.
fully.
wholly.
compassion bringers.
harvest winners.
God seekers.
Lord, keep me close to You.
a deep yearning.
for intimacy with You.
for more and more.
help me to trust.