Sunday, May 27
a month of events and lessons to learn.
big nice toilet.big nice bed.
big fluffy pillows.
big fluffy blanket.
first time eating passion fruit.
finding out if seeds can be bitten or eaten.
finding out if orange skin is good for health.
kith cafe.
forty hands.
the orange thimble.
books actually.
french bookshop.
reading.
writing.
resting.
listening to the Word.
taking photos.
back alleys.
old school doors.
old school windows.
cheds, the cheesy nice biscuit.
drinking grape juice from wine glasses.
honey ginger chai and blended caramel latte.
orange and grapefruit drink, cappuccino.
spinach mushroom pizza, mussels, chix wings.
orange jelly filled with lotsa tiny oranges.
chwee kuey.
porridge.
beef noodles which didn't quite taste nice.
sugar cane drink.
old man walking so slowly.
step by step.
sharing about growing old.
the fears.
the wisdom.
uncle without legs.
selling tissue.
ate his meal after he finished selling tissue.
boil water.
make tea.
peel off orange skin.
soft boiled eggs.
inside.
kneeling.
praying.
singing.
breakthrough.
sleeping.
loving.
sharing.
talking about crossroads.
talking about life.
talking about relationships.
talking about Father God.
talking about friends.
talking about school.
talking about family.
holding hands.
making sure it's safe.
cross roads.
crossroads.
a pun.
singapore river.
enjoying the night.
the breeze.
dreaming about the ideal proposal.
capturing the wonder.
the fantasy.
the imagination.
so thankful for the three days.
this friendship means much.
being thankful for the moments.
the simplicity.
of enjoying each other's presence.
of enjoying God's presence.
life is short.
never know what's going to happen next.
how long we'll live.
how many more years till God calls us home.
each year.
retreats.
precious.
special.
treasured.
God speaks.
shows me my sin.
shows me how i've failed.
shows me how i fall in areas i think i'm strong.
shows me how weak i am.
shows me that there's no one else but Him.
shows me that i'm truly in need of His grace.
next.
dad.
one hundred and sixty heartbeat.
how scary was that.
priority one in A&E.
scared me totally.
imagining losing him.
that freaked me out.
when the heart stops, everything else stops.
that moment.
it sank in immediately.
no delay at all.
anxiety crept in.
filled with too much emotions to bear.
thank God for friends in office.
a friend prayed with me.
behind the compactors.
talking to God about my dad.
bringing the focus back to God Himself.
a hug that truly brought comfort in the tears.
calmed me down quite a bit.
thankful for friends.
next.
yeh yeh.
in hospital.
he says.
i have no hope.
i'm waiting to die.
it's so unfortunate for you to have a grandfather like me.
is that how old people feel.
the hopelessness.
the visit was assuring.
hearing him say amen.
hearing him reciting verses with me from psalm twenty three.
knowing he has been reconciled with his daughter.
knowing that he'll be in heaven when he goes home.
that's the most comforting.
he's back in hospital again.
for passing out black blood in his motion.
he doesn't want to sign the papers.
to undergo a procedure to check what's wrong.
maybe he's scared.
next.
a fruit of the spirit is self-control.
knowing our limits.
knowing when enough is enough.
thank God for friends who know your stand.
and help you stick with your stand and not fall into peer pressure.
always helps to have one with the same conviction as you.
in a place where it's easy to go along with the crowd.
He kept us all safe.
and brought the four of us safely home.
growing older.
seeing more things.
the world out there.
being in the world but not of the world.
definitely a conversation to be continued.
next.
cg dinner.
truly a reunion of sorts.
it's been really long.
since we gathered like this.
the three of them.
the four of us.
plus two more other halves.
getting to know them.
them getting to know our friends.
years have flown by.
people have come and gone.
we've all had our journeys.
of being single.
of being attached.
wondering what's to come.
wondering what's ahead.
wondering what God will do in our lives.
He'll do a great work.
celebrating life.
celebrating birthdays.
next.
i need more time with You Lord.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, May 22
note it down.
things to write about which i haven't gotten down to.wangz.
changi hospital.
ice-skating.
cg dinner with des and cher.
dad.
help me to trust.
Thursday, May 17
hongkong twenty twelve.
help me to trust.
loves much.
help me to trust.
Wednesday, May 16
dad and his dad.
yeh yeh.hospitalised.
low blood count.
high fever.
vomiting.
breathless.
weak.
possible stomach internal bleeding.
possible intestine problem.
pneumonia.
bloated tummy.
eighty eight years old.
how long more will he survive?
would he live till ninety?
or a hundred?
he is so old.
decisions.
deciding whether he should undergo procedures.
procedures to find out what is wrong.
but these procedures might end up killing him.
because he's so old.
his body might not be able to take it.
wisdom is needed.
for dad and his siblings.
thank God that my boss allowed me to take two hour lunch break tmr.
and make up by staying till seven pm.
can go with dad to visit yeh yeh in hospital.
how long more will i see him alive?
i really don't know.
Lord, teach me to be a good granddaughter.
dad.
heart problems recently.
heart palpitation.
both his sisters have heart palpitation too.
atrial fibrillation.
that's what they call it.
is that what dad has too?
my aunts found out too late and so too late to cure.
what will happen to dad?
he used to be able to cycle from jurong to changi and back.
now, he feels so tired and breathless from jurong to west coast park.
i love you dad.
he seems tired.
tired from work.
hopes to retire soon.
Lord, give him strength.
he's fifty two.
give him joy Lord.
mommy's worried too.
brothers?
how are they feeling?
i'm not sure.
me.
heavy hearted.
but yet not wanting to be overly worried.
or maybe just in slight denial for now.
thinking that things will be okay.
health issues of loved ones brings much anxiety.
prayed for dad and yeh yeh at prayer meeting today.
realised that so many people are having hard times.
in their lives.
worried about marriage.
worried about children.
worried about parents.
committing all these into Your hands Lord.
in Your presence, that's where i belong.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, May 8
may twenty twelve.
fifth of may twenty ten. the day i started work two years ago.
it was a saturday this year.
glad to spend it away from work.
second to fourth of may twenty eleven.
three days with jo in langkawi.
snorkeling. waterfall. monkeys. cable car. beach. sunset.
time together.
first to sixth of may twenty twelve.
trip to hongkong with jo and mic.
six days in hongkong.
six days with friends.
six days of rest from work.
six days of exploring this land.
thankful for many things these six days.
thank You Lord for a friend.
came to fetch the three of us from our homes.
we had to be at airport at four thirty in the morning.
it's really such a blessing to have friends like that.
thank You Lord for the safe journey in the airplane.
turbulence on the way back was stronger than usual.
thank You Lord for safety.
in hongkong and especially in shenzhen.
none of us were in any danger.
none of us lost any of our belongings.
thank You Lord for the yummy food we had.
normal, red and black ramen.
where the queue extended to opposite the street.
tim sum. baked char siew bao. four baskets high.
where we had to queue and wait for more than an hour.
soft and smooth mashed potato in disneyland.
on a scattering rain day.
macdonalds nuggets.
cost me only two sing dollars.
thank You Lord for shopping.
managed to get some casual as well as work clothes.
the kind that i like.
so my clothes ended up looking all the same.
rather affordable prices they were at.
and a nike shorts at only nineteen sing dollars.
bought the iphone cover i always wanted.
costs about forty in singapore, but only seven dollars there.
thank You Lord for keeping yeh yeh well.
was really afraid that God will take him home.
he was admitted to hospital.
i think he's better now.
Lord, please bring about reconciliation.
among my dad's family.
bring those strained relationships back to peace.
three of us prayed together.
it's always heartfelt when His children gather to talk to Him.
prayed for family.
thank You Lord for disneyland.
the fireworks at the end was amazing.
really awesome.
it was, magical.
really magical.
left me without words, but just enjoying the fireworks.
colourful fireworks. shimmering fireworks.
bright fireworks. exploding fireworks.
almost teared when i stood there watching the fireworks.
it was just beautiful, almost indescribable.
it might sound strange.
but as i was watching the fireworks display, i thought about God.
maybe i kinda teared because of a realisation.
a realisation that if this is already so beautiful, how much more God is.
somehow He felt really close, as i watched those fireworks.
a special moment to remember.
thank You Lord for the trip to Noah's ark theme park.
that was another highlight of the trip.
a visit that made me think about God.
the first amazing thing.
the size of the ark.
it was gigantic.
really really really huge.
i was reminded that Noah had to build the ark for one hundred years.
one hundred years of faith, for someone who had never seen rain before.
imagine that. one hundred years. building an ark.
i was reminded that being in the ark during the flood was scary too.
i've always read about Noah's ark in the bible.
i don't know where i got the idea.
but i always thought that the ark was smoothly floating during the flood.
the four D show at the exhibition came with thunder, wind, lightning.
and a video of what it was like to be in the ark.
it wasn't smoothly sailing.
it was scary. thundery. shaky.
Noah's family was in there for five whole months!
it was tough for them.
the theme park created lots of evangelistic opportunities.
saw how the designers incorporated evangelism into the theme park.
it's just heartfelt.
knowing that we have the same heartbeat for evangelism.
a video about treasuring life.
t-shirts with designs, using colours to share the gospel.
a group of old ladies from china.
probably in their seventies.
with a passion for God in their hearts.
one lady who sang to God.
it's so nice to see old people having friends to love God together.
to travel together.
to journey on the rest of their walk of life together.
there's something special about old people who believe in God.
ah gong. believe in God. that'll be the best decision in your life.
thank You Lord for mic.
someone who encourages me to walk with God.
her faithfulness. her example.
taught us how to get around from place to place.
arranging the hostel.
always paying first.
going to disneyland again.
bringing camera for me to use.
shopping together and helping me decide when i can't decide.
teaching us how to fit all our shopping into our luggage.
excited about musicals.
excited about baking.
enjoying the moment, no camera, no videos.
doesn't like sandwiches. doesn't like raw tomatoes.
only willing to take photo with albert einstein.
likes useful things.
shares about fireworks being colourful due to different metals exploding.
saying things which jo hears as some other funny random word.
telling us that what we spotted is not a hidden mickey, but an obvious one.
reminded me of the times in secondary school.
how she taught me to share the gospel.
taught me physics and chemistry.
very thankful always.
thank You Lord for jo.
a friend whom i treasure so much.
one whom i'd like to grow old with.
her presence.
brings so much joy and laughter.
she shares. she listens. she prays.
she remembers lyrics.
sings meaningful songs to God.
songs with lyrics that are rich and true.
that night when we listened and sang songs to God.
it was lovely.
capturing moments during our trip.
i like the pics she took.
recalling memories together.
writing them down.
we both like cheap hostels and cheap shopping.
likes minute maid orange drink and bo luo bao.
likes to clap to make those stuffed toys dance.
taking pictures together.
with woody, pinoc, pluto, mick, daisy, pooh, lky, beckham, princess diana.
poiful sweet which lasted six days.
whipping out wet tissue or hand sanitizer when we needed it most.
cares for me by telling me not to eat oily food and to eat more veggie.
thinks of many friends and her dad, mommy and bro, and buys them gifts.
messages her mommy every day.
little things like sandwich maker and banana cutter makes her happy.
may her grandma come to know You.
thank You Lord for You.
for everything.
for giving us life.
for giving us breath.
for watching over us the whole time.
tenth to twelfth of may twenty twelve.
wangz.
coffee cafes.
with diakest kolega.
rest. listen. share. pray.
retreat with God.
seeking direction.
asking for forgiveness.
reflecting upon life.
looking forward lots to that.
loves.
june twenty twelve.
december twenty twelve.
twenty thirteen.
twenty fourteen. tasmania.
if the Lord willing.
help me to trust.