Sunday, March 18
about stuff.
about staff appraisal.one year ten months since i first started work.
i can still remember how nervous i was when i first started out.
wondering how things will be.
wondering if i would be able to survive in my first job.
time flew by and it's staff appraisal time of the year again.
being evaluated for the past year of work.
i've never liked staff appraisals.
cos it's troublesome to have to fill in all those forms.
but i now realize that such times are actually very helpful.
it's a time where i get to think and evaluate my own work.
it's a time where i start to think about what i would like do next.
it's a time where i share how i would like to see myself growing.
it's a time where i hear from my boss of my work quality and attitude.
i realised how much of God's grace has been with me.
hearing words of affirmation and assurance.
i've always felt that my work wasn't good.
that others around me are much better.
that i'm falling short, not doing well enough.
that i'm slow in grasping things.
that i'm bad at speaking and articulating.
but it seems like, maybe doing my best for God at work is what matters.
and somehow, He will shine through me when He desires to.
i don't know, i'm just filled with much awe.
of how He blesses me at work with wonderful colleagues and bosses.
He blesses me by giving me opportunities.
He blesses me by helping me with the work i've been tasked to do.
and in ways i don't realize, He has been guiding me.
in ways i don't see, He has showed favor.
i don't know what else to say, but thank You Lord.
Lord, help me remain teachable, remain humble.
knowing it's by Your grace.
about esplanade night.
was a night of being awed by the music produced.
the band was really awesome.
i thought the drummer was really good.
after that shannon told me it was his teacher's son.
jimmy lee's son - aaron lee.
who has been playing since young.
euns' cg members were there too.
it was a night of good company and music.
that strangeness can't seem to go.
i don't know why.
vic treated us to a very satisfying indian meal in little india.
thanks vic!
about love.
it's tough to love people when they constantly come into your space. demanding attention. but if we are always in control, deciding whom and when we will love, then we risk having a weak imitation of love. if we aren't open to our schedule being interrupted or our bank account tapped, then we might be fooling ourselves as to our own goodness. love gives. from book, when love walked among us. well, even the tax collectors love those who are lovable.
about youth ministry.
had a good discussion with pastor and ben.
sharing how we would like to see the youth ministry grow.
sharing the purpose and mission of the ministry.
this time we spent some good solid time in prayer before we started.
and i truly experienced God's empowering during our discussion.
we started off with nothing much.
and we ended off with something we all came up with together.
it was a common understanding and consensus.
united.
it was indeed God who brought us there.
keep us humble and broken as your servants.
about the new week ahead.
a new week starts tomorrow.
thank God it's monday - it's great living by that.
some of my friends are struggling.
some really need You.
Lord, be with them.
and help me to be the friend You want me to be.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, March 13
the stories of our lives.
three packed weeks in a row.it's tiring i must say.
but building relationships are things to hold close.
dinner with py. (: (:
very nice cosy tea place.
pretty.
quiet.
like sort of a retreat from the busy world.
just resting and relaxing.
enjoyed the sharing of lives, the listening, the smiling.
we all come with different experiences.
with our own stories to tell.
with the stories coming together and overlapping at some chapters.
the chapters are all woven together simply yet powerfully.
You've got our lives written in Your book.
she's so precious in Your sight.
we all are.
she's so precious in Your sight.
we all are.
help me to trust.
Wednesday, March 7
march thoughts.
it's interesting how God has been using different people to encourage me to continue to be faithful in the work that God has called me to. recently, people have been telling me about how i've been a testimony and encouragement to others. and it's in ways that i didn't even know that i was being an encouragement... was just going about doing usual things. uncle robert approaching me to share what he has seen in me, eric and ee han sharing that richard decided to explore serving in yfc cos he saw something in me and heard that i have been involved in yfc... thank You Lord for showing me this assurance that my life has been one that has been honoring to You. i'm not perfect, i'm far from who God wants me to be, i'm one filled with much sin, but yet God still works through me. it's all about Him. it's nothing about our personal holiness, but it's all about God and His glory. it really has nothing to do with me that people are encouraged, but i'm just very thankful for the special assurance and encouragement from God, for me to press on and continue to be faithful in this journey. and God knows. He knows i've kinda been a little tired recently, kinda thinking about my involvement in the different areas of ministries... thinking about whether my life has been pleasing to Him and whether i've been doing and focusing on the things that He would like me to do and learn. and well, these little encouragements here and there kinda bring in some light, that maybe, my life is indeed aligned with what God has created me to be and do.Moses prepared for eighty years for forty years of ministry. Jesus prepared for thirty years for just three years of ministry. our call in life will come in different phases. each phase is to prepare us for the next phase.
it's about making a meaningful life out of an ordinary one. God can help us do that.
living in light of my death.
Jesus was broke when He died.
what is success in life? it is - completing the work that God has set out for me to do since i was born. to hear God say, "good and faithful servant" would be the greatest thing ever.
thank You Lord for my job. for the opportunities given to me to depend on You. the many faith stretching moments which You have never failed to bring me through. thank You Lord for the friends i have at work. i've never imagined that i would make such wonderful friends at work. i remember how nervous i was on my first day of work. it's coming to two years. and there's only wonderful things to thank God for.
what next is the question.
it's just amazing. euns. her life. her testimony at the work place. her passion for You. her closeness to You. her dependence and love for You. her heart for people. her understanding of the things in people's hearts. her prayers. her life. thank You Lord for teaching me so so much about who You are through her and what it means to live a life that is pleasing and honoring to You. this learning journey has been amazing. thank You God for everything. and Lord, be with her tomorrow.
shan. she shows me what being a wife is to be like. she gently and quietly shows acts of care. dropping by quietly in her own way to show that you're cared for. thank You.
anna stepped out in faith. she crossed the jordan river. it was a painful decision, this God-honoring decision. it's hard. but yet because she loves God, she made that decision. God, You'll give her the best. a real life example of what it means to love God.
arvind and cheryl. looking forward to spending some time together with them on saturday.
cannot order naan without ordering the sauce.... never knew there was such a rule. thank God for the time together. for bus rides together. for sharing chicken wings, maggie goreng and garlic bread. for sharing of lives. listening and being together. the gift of friendship.
singing from the heart. dynamics. with a friend. the many years of knowing her has been so fruitful and meaningful. seeing her grow up. seeing her serve. seeing her persevere. seeing her depending on God through school. seeing her now mature and loving Jesus. amazing.
two friends. two new jobs. Lord, be with them.
though our queensway market dinner has been postponed, it doesn't mean that i don't miss you!
these next two to three weeks is packed. every night out... wonder how i'll survive. but am looking forward to some of the meet ups and catch ups. though it'll be physically tiring, but meeting people and friends are such special moments to be treasured. it's about the sharing of hearts. lives. understanding.
she came to know Jesus through street evangelism. i'm so encouraged by her faithfulness and passion in doing God's work. quiet girl, yet filled with so much love for the young people. thinking of so many ways to reach out to them.
her birthday is on friday.
help me to trust.
Saturday, March 3
(: (:
help me to trust.