Wednesday, May 30
grrrrrrrrrr
you can never take back the words you say. especially if you say them out of anger. i just said something that wasn't kind to 2 people.. that was my natural response. i shouldn't have said that. i should have been more hospitable. but i'm just so fuming mad that he is so selfish! he doesn't care a heck about anyone. all he cares about is himself. why is it that just because i'm more accomodating then i have to accomodate? i'm not angry that i had to give it up, i'm just mad that his response to me was one that totally got me on my nerves. FUMING MAD! common sense and logic says that he should be the one giving it up, not me! serious! he says he has things to do, so do I! and he's so noisy. can't stand it. God, please help me take away the anger. who am i to judge him and criticize him? i'm just as selfish. GRRRRRRR....... AARRRHHHHH!!!!!!ok. i shall now calm myself down by thinking about better things. dinner at pepper lunch was good.. just a time of catching up with each other and talking and loving each other's presence. am also looking forward to the diving course! yay! excited! and of course looking forward to our yummy dinner this sunday... have to save up now! eat cheap and eat less! in preparation for sunday evening! heh! and i just got a msg frm someone who wants to sign up for teengames! so i'm happy too! ok... well, thinking about these things makes my fuming anger go down quite a bit. why should i waste my energy being so angry with a person who doesn't even bother that i'm angry and who is not even a bit affected by what i said. ok. i shall stop thinking about this. whatever is lovely, pure, praiseworthy, kind etc... think about such things!
help me to trust.
Sunday, May 27
twenty seventh of may
good job everyone! for helping out in moving!! PGP! here we come! had dinner with mom and ryan at imm just now... i saw a nike top that i liked very much.. the one that i saw YX wearing at BH that day.. and mom bought it for me!! thanks mom! the top is kinda dark pinkish.. but i like it! it's nice and it looks sporty..
next week i'll be going diving! i'm looking forward for the dive trip. i would love to explore what's under the sea... it's another side of God's creation that i can look at in awe.. i love nature! i can just sit by the beach the whole day (if it's not too hot) to look at the vast expanse of the sea, with waves crashing in.. praises to God just flow out of me when i look at the sea, the sky, the horizon, the setting sun.... amazing. God You are amazing.
R's going to Australia for a few weeks.... so sad.. can't see cute little J.. i'll miss her!
everyone, let's work hard together for TG! it's coming soon! publicity!! and keep praying!
help me to trust.
Saturday, May 26
results out!
just got back my results today via sms. thank God for His grace... i did well. Lord, next semester i really want to be consistent in my work. please help me not be lazy and not to do last minute studying again. give me discipline Lord!
help me to trust.
Wednesday, May 23
couz
Birthday song for you:Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to you...
Happy Birthday to Cheryl....
Happy Birthday to you!
hey couz, you're special! i thank God for you! you're an important part of my life! am looking forward to learning diving with you! so glad you decided to go! it'd be an amazing experience!
help me to trust.
Tuesday, May 22
a day with dad
spent almost an entire day with my dad yesterday. in the late morning, dad and i went to visit yeh yeh at the home. we brought him out for lunch and to just walk around the shopping mall. it was great spending time with my dad and my grandfather. although my grandfather is sometimes unpleasant with his words, well, i guess seeing him healthy and alive is already good enough for me. and i like to see the moments when he smiles. he's a Christian, but he told me on the bus, "i don't believe in God"... for a moment i felt quite sad that he said that. it made me wonder whether he'll go to heaven when he dies.... but before we left the home, i prayed for him. then he prayed for dad and i and himself. in his prayer, he recognised God as the Lord.... so.... that kinda comforted me a little that God still had a place in his heart. God, i pray that You'll keep him close to You. in the evening, went with dad to IMM to get stuff and to eat fries... and late in the evening, i looked up the sky and there were so many stars! so i took a walk at the park near my house. so happened dad finished his jog, so we watched stars together. it's very nice to just spend a day with dad.
today i finally went to hospital to visit aunty E. mom offered to go with me coz i don't really know aunty E and i don't know what to say if i were to go! thanks mom for going with me!
i was looking at my mom... and looking at my dad.... they've aged.... i've started to learn how to treasure them before it's too late. they're already in their late 40s... not many more years to go if i come to think of it... i love them and i don't know what i'd do without them. Lord, please keep them healthy and fit and free from accidents.
help me to trust.
Thursday, May 17
Heart For Your Desire
thank God for the time spent with Him these 3 days. (: it was a good time reflecting on what it means to be a good soldier of Christ. it was good having lw around! it's less scary having a friend around! here's a poem i read. very meaningful."Heart for Your Desire"
Deep in my soul
There's a longing I feel
To look at my life in the light of Your will
Knowing Your heart
Trusting Your Truth
Day after day
I'm walking with You
All my hopes
All my dreams
Help me forfeit everything
For whatever Your kingdom requires
Guide my steps
Let me see
The best You have for me
Give me a heart for Your desire
Teach me, oh God
In the ways of Your word
Whisper through voices that I've seldom heard
Strengthen my faith
Weaken my will
Lead me to where Your love is fullfilled
As I delight in You, oh Lord
Within me there's a fire
And I'm finding the desire of my heart
Is a heart for your desire
I want a heart for your desire
help me to trust.
Monday, May 14
thanks WL
had lunch with wl today after staff meeting today. i enjoyed the time of catching up with each other. we talked for about 2 hours... haven't spoken to her for more than 2 months! but for that 2 hours, she made her presence felt. i guess this is what people mean when they say that we can make full use of each meeting we have with people. i shared with her about ministry and about life. she understood where i was coming from, and at the same time in a non threatening way, she also caused me to think about my decision about this holiday as well as my Christian walk with God. she also shared about how she's coping with her ministry... thank you wl for making my day! Lord, i pray for wl, that you'll give her the strength and the energy and the wisdom to manage her different responsibilities in ministry. please encourage her along in the work, and give her joy in what she is doing. thank you Lord for her... (:
help me to trust.
Friday, May 11
guard my response
Lord, i pray that even my 'default' response will be one that pleases You.
help me to trust.
Wednesday, May 9
catch their tears
i've got 2 friends who need Your touch and Your presence right now. just as the song goes...
"every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes"
Lord, catch their tears and wipe their fears away.
my friends... you're in my prayers.
Lord, thank You for being real.
as what another friend puts it,
"thankfully we have Him.
and we need not go through this by ourselves".
how true.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, May 8
God... please. be there with her.
God please be there with my dear friend... she needs you, your comfort, your love, your peace, your grace, your strength. Lord, please give this all to her!!!!!! in times like this, there is only one set of footprints on the sand... that's when you are gona carry her right? you're not in this alone dear friend. God is with you, and so are we. we're always here for you k. just a phonecall away. step one: scroll down your contact list until you reach 'S'. step two: look for the name 'Sherlyn'. step three: press the 'call' button. step four: wait for me to pick up! (: Lord, you are powerful, you are capable of a miracle! just pray that you'll keep watching over her...
help me to trust.
Monday, May 7
get well soon
hey... get well soon ya... God, please send your healing hands upon her. Be with her in all things! press on!
help me to trust.
Sunday, May 6
be with aunty E
Lord, i pray for aunty E... you know what she's going through, you know how she's feeling, you know what's happening. all knowing Lord, please be with her. grant her the strength she needs to go through whatever she needs to go through. pray also for T and T that they may draw strength from you too. that they will be able to support aunty E through this time. amen.
help me to trust.
Saturday, May 5
a quick update
yay!!!!!! finally exams are over. ended on wednesday... thank God for seeing me through all those times where i struggled to keep awake while studying, all the times of mugging in school, at home, at jurong east library. now i pray that i will leave the results into his hands... i'm just amazed that my studying days are over for now... at least for the next 2 months plus.today i went to watch phantom of the opera with 3 buddies. breathtaking! spectacular! the props, the actors, the lighting, the music, the singing, the tune of the songs, the plot! everything was so magnificent. and ever since i got out of the theatre, i've been humming the songs.. this is the best play i've watched. tickets are expensive, but we got a close up seat and it's worth the money! fabulous!! enjoyed it alot!! the show was awesome, and so was the company! it was a good time for us to catch up with one another.. (: thks p for the haagen dazs ice cream treat!! yummy!
my 2 good friends in uni are going to USA this holiday for work and travel... Lord, keep them safe, let them have a good break there. will miss them!
help me to trust.