Tuesday, October 31
jumping onto the track
the latest way of committing suicide: jumping onto the mrt track as the train approaches. even in their death, people want to be heard. people used to jump off the building, but in doing so, who cares? no one knows! but if they jump onto the track, singapore knows, all trains get diverted and hopefully, people send in some money to their family members who have been left behind. since the first suicide of this sort, many others have followed. i believe this trend isn't going out of fashion that soon. there'll be more to come.
people's lives are so empty. like a donut. a hole in their heart. emptiness. they need Jesus.
help me to trust.
Monday, October 30
donuts
i read this in someone's blog. quite interesting. how true it is!life without Jesus
is like a donut
like a donut
like a donut
life without Jesus
is like a donut.
cos there's a hole in the middle of your heart.
help me to trust.
Saturday, October 28
join God where He is
"My Father is always at his work to this very day, and I, too, am working. I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does. For the Father loves the Son and shows him all he does. Yes, to your amazement he will show him even greater things than these" John 5:17,19-20.God is working around us. what we have to do is: watch to see where God is working and join Him.
help me to trust.
Wednesday, October 25
retreat 06
yesterday. a full day retreat... 9am to 930pm. i was a little stoned at the end... could hardly absorb what people were saying. and it doesn't help that i have inherited my dad's genes of stuffy nose. in the aircon room, i kept sneezing and my nose was stuffed up. couldn't breathe well. i was totally annoyed by my nose. because of that lousy nose, it made me feel like i was sick. well, but that day wasn't wasted. i picked up somethings that were being said. 2 things i can clearly remember. Firstly,
Evangelism.................Mobilization
To Non Christians........Through Christians
evangelism is not yfc's idea. it is God's idea.
Secondly,
the speaker reminded me of an impt lesson. God is telling me that being a Christian is all about loving God and loving people. this exact idea keeps coming back to me... in my own personal devotion, when talking to aunty MK, and here at the retreat. everyone is saying, love God, love people, love God, love people. that is my prayer. evangelism is something i want to do because i love God. in this light, evangelism becomes enjoyable, because it is.
help me to trust.
Sunday, October 22
a friend
ever since i could remember, God has put this special friend in my life. ever since we had sunday school in pri school, all the way through pathfinders and until today. she's grown in her own way and God has been watching over her. both of us have very different personality, and when people of different personalities mix together, there will be times of character clashes. at times i say the wrong thing at the wrong time because i wasn't sensitive. but as i learnt about her, i grew to love her just the way God made her.
help me to trust.
Thursday, October 19
mid term
once again, God has been really gracious to me. got back 3 of my mid term tests results. did better than i expected for 2 of them. i couldn't have possibly done it by myself. He is so gracious to me. Lord, remind me that it is not by my own effort that i study and achieve.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, October 17
does God know?
food for thought:we know that God loves us, but does God know that we love Him?
help me to trust.
Friday, October 13
true success
"true success is not measured by how much we own, but how much of us God owns"help me to trust.
Thursday, October 12
sajc. a memory.
was chatting to YL over lunch yesterday. we were thinking abt how fun it was to be in sajc. such memorable times, such wonderful friendships built. i miss sa! (i don't like nus) there were highs and lows, but on a whole, i had loads and loads of fun.
sitting around chatting in the cafe, touch rug trainings, funny moments in class, mugging in the study room and sneaking food in, chilli stingray!!! sprinting to the school gate before the long bell ends, at times i make it in, at times i just miss it by a second or so.. hai, so end up have to stand in the parade square, buckle up the top button of my shirt and pull my tie high up, adjust my skirt till it touches my knee, tuck in my shirt as high as possible! look like a goon la! haha.. and then give the discipline mistress an innocent look as she walks by with her glaring eyes. once bell rings to go back to class, the whole process reverses... unbutton top button of shirt, pull tie lower etc etc etc.
even lectures were fun. sit together, trying hard to pay attention, sometimes we talk a bit, sometimes when we're too tired, we fall asleep. getting through A levels was tough, but though it was tough, because of the friends and the sense of feeling at home in sa, the process was made to be much more enjoyable. teachers were also approachable, consulted them quite alot as the A levels drew nearer. thank you all those who were part of my life in sa. especially my 2 buddies-diana and zien.
yeah... today's just one of the days where i reminisce about times in sa. i can say that 'that was the time of my life'. i miss SA!!!!!!!
help me to trust.
Wednesday, October 11
God's love
diana, this is for u.it brings me to tears when i reflect on God's tender loving care. who am i that the Lord of the earth should know my name, and understand my hurt? i am nobody, just like a flower, might be ard today and gone tmr. just like a wave tossing ard in the wide ocean, yet God still hears when i call and catches me when i fall. and He tells me that I am His. it's really not because of who i am, but because of God, His character. God is such a personal God. many times i know 'jesus died on the cross for me'. after a while, it has become just like a fact. but this song touched my heart and helped me to reflect on God's love for a nobody like me. i'm thankful for God's love for me. Lord, i'm learning, help me love You more each day.
God's love for me: it's just amazing.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, October 10
who am i
C, this song is really meaningful huh? found a link to the song.
http://www.radioblogclub.com/open/77971/casting_crowns/Casting%20Crowns%20-%20Who%20am%20I
"who am i" casting crowns.
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
help me to trust.
Monday, October 9
pl, a, sk - thks
pl, thks for the sms that day. so touched! i thk God together with you for the chalet.a, thks for the hp pouch and card holder. i can feel the love in each stitch.
sk, thks for being so hospitable. i'll arrange a day to bunk over in your hall k!
help me to trust.
Saturday, October 7
our journey-life
life is a journey. life is short. in our more reflective moments, we remember these truths. and yet, our lives are often lived in a distracted, fragmented, and unexamined way. if life is a journey, should we not think about the destination of this journey? should we not seek to discover meaning and purpose in our lives? should we not embark on a real journey rather than wander about aimlessly in the wastelands of this world?"a feast for the soul" by robert m solomon
help me to trust.
Thursday, October 5
tv show
watched a tv show on tuesday night. it was titled something like, "days with my ah gong". the show is about a pri sch boy who was made to live with his grandfather while his mom took on a job. his grandfather works as a garang guni man. the pri sch boy, terry, has terrible attitude. he complains abt the food, tv, everythg! while grandpa was bathing, he threw away the chinese medicine that his grandfather was boiling. he puts marbles on the floor hoping his grandpa wld fall. he orders his grandpa not to go too near his school. he wrote 'stupid' behind grandpa's shirt. he scolds his grandpa for being useless and old & stupid. grandpa is sick but doesn't eat medicine unless he is in great pain so that he can save the money to buy things for the boy. grandpa used up all his savings to get grandson's game boy repaired and a new game. grandpa looks after terry when he is ill.when the grandson does the horrible things to grandpa, grandpa is upset, he gets sad, but still, he loves the boy and wants the best for the boy. until one day, grandpa stepped on the marbles the boy left on the floor. he slipped and fell. he laid in bed the next few days. terry started to reflect on the things he had done. felt sorry. looked at grandpa's money box, wanted to buy medicine for grandpa, all that was left was $10. boy decided to take over grandpa in the garang guni job. eventually he grew to love his grandpa. he wanted to look after grandpa and he didn't even want to go home. (he used to call his mom everyday to bring him home).
a very touching story. especially the part when the boy finally knew he was wrong and his attitude changed totally. i could see that there was this great sense of happiness in grandpa seeing his grandson growing up and loving him.
the grandpa reminds me of God. the boy reminds me of myself. sometimes i ignore God, sometimes i disobey God, sometimes i do things that make God sad. but yet, God still loves me, still blesses me, still takes care of me. and God will continue to do that until i finally realise His love, and go back to Him, to do the things that pleases Him, to do things for Him. then, we will be in a loving relationship with a great sense of joy.
help me to trust.