Friday, September 29
King over the flood
LIFE is really full of problems. sometimes our problems seem like they're driving us crazy... sometimes we just feel so helpless. at such moments all we can do is cry out to God and say, HELP ME LORD! after doing that, our problems don't disappear. but what we know is that God will see us THROUGH the problem. many times we think, why do i have to go through this? can't life be simpler? at such times, look back, think back, take time to pause, recall and remember how the Lord has seen you through times in the past, times where you thought you'll never make it through. He has brought you through hasn't He? all of us are tired. some of us feel like giving up. but there are some of us who have experienced God's love, some who are excited about God and His work. all of us are going through different periods of our life. wherever you are, just remember, when the oceans rise and thunders roar, let's soar with Him above the storm, our Father is King over the flood, let's be still and know that He is God.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, September 26
juz to u
to you (you should know who you are)...i just want to tell you again, that you are much stronger than you think you are.. really. i can see it in you. i think God can see that in you too.
help me to trust.
Sunday, September 24
a pure heart
aunty MK inserted a slip of paper into the present she gave me. after sharing about stuff during tea that day, she probably found this article helpful for me.it's entitled...
"A pure heart"
also i heard the voice of the Lord, saying: "whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?" then I said, "here am i! send me." Isaiah 6:8
it takes a pure heart to see God (matt 5:8). you can attend church services, read your Bible, and pray; but if sin fills your heart, you will not see God. you will know when you have encountered God because your life will no longer be the same.
Isaiah was concerned with the death of King Uzziah, the able king of Judah, but was disoriented to his heavenly King. then something happened that forever changed Isaiah's life. God, in all His awesome majesty, appeared to him in the temple, surrounded by heavenly creatures. instantly, God's presence made Isaiah aware of his sinfulness. One of the seraphim came to him with a burning coal and cleansed Isaiah of his sin. immediately, Isaiah began to hear things he had never heard before. now, he was aware of a conversation in heaven concerning who might be worthy to be God's messenger to the people. this prompted Isaiah's eager response: "here i am! send me" now that God had cleansed Isaiah, he was aware of heavenly concerns and prepared to offer himself in God's service. whereas Isaiah had been preoccupied with earthly matters, now his only concern was the activity of God.
If you have become estrangled from God and His activity, you need to experience His cleansing. sanctification prepares you to see and hear God. it enables you to serve Him. only God can purify your heart. allow Him to remove any impurities that hinder your relationship with Him, and then your service to Him will have meaning as you offer Him your consecrated life.
help me to trust.
Saturday, September 23
visitation
went to visit yeh yeh today. first time in quite a while. i should go more often. he seems glad to see us.
help me to trust.
Wednesday, September 20
thks amk
met up with AMK today for tea. was a bd treat from her to me. i enjoy talking to her because she gives me lots of insights and i love to hear her share. a few things i picked up from her today1. our relationship with God is not just about how many times we do QT a week or how often we pray.
2. don't be afraid to ask God to show you spiritual things, things beyond this physical world.
3. when ideas pop into your head, just do it. God might be the one speaking to you.
4. we don't LEARN how to be humble (that's our own initiative), we ask God to MAKE us humble.
5. our relationship with God is indeed a LOVE thing. not a DUTY thing.
6. sometimes we just have to accept that there are times where we feel a spiritual low. these times aren't necessarily bad.
before you blow off a candle on a birthday cake, you get to make a wish. this year, each time before i blew off the candles on the cakes, each time i made just this same ONE wish - that i will LOVE GOD AND LOVE PEOPLE.
help me to trust.
Monday, September 18
third J gone
the third J - Janeshe's gone to London to study. sundays will miss the presence of a dear friend.
what i've learnt from her: her Godly principles and how she firmly holds on to them.
help me to trust.
Friday, September 15
lessons from batam
promised to write a little more about batam.. so here it is.
many times, when we go for a mission trip, we go there wanting to help people, wanting to give them things we have which they don't. that's not wrong, but more often, we come back, learning from them more than we have given.
this trip to the home at batam taught me what love is. 17 children, all from different backgrounds, different place of birth, different families. all they have in common is that they have lost at least one parent. yet they live in unity. they don't get angry when they play sports. they never lose their temper. they do the assigned household chores willingly and diligently. seriously, i hv never seen such wonderful children in singapore.
the trip made me reflect on my life. why can't i show love to the closest people in my life the way these children do? why do i complain so much? for each meal, 2 girls on duty have to wash 20 sets of utensils, plates, pots, pans, whatever. yet no sign of complain, just willingness to help out. me? i complain that i have to wash my own plate.
Lord, help me to love people, to complain less, and to give thanks more.
saw my fav boy at tiang wang kang. deri. it has been one year since i last saw him. he has grown up. but the way he holds the 'twist' sign is exactly the same!
many times, when we go for a mission trip, we go there wanting to help people, wanting to give them things we have which they don't. that's not wrong, but more often, we come back, learning from them more than we have given.
this trip to the home at batam taught me what love is. 17 children, all from different backgrounds, different place of birth, different families. all they have in common is that they have lost at least one parent. yet they live in unity. they don't get angry when they play sports. they never lose their temper. they do the assigned household chores willingly and diligently. seriously, i hv never seen such wonderful children in singapore.
the trip made me reflect on my life. why can't i show love to the closest people in my life the way these children do? why do i complain so much? for each meal, 2 girls on duty have to wash 20 sets of utensils, plates, pots, pans, whatever. yet no sign of complain, just willingness to help out. me? i complain that i have to wash my own plate.
Lord, help me to love people, to complain less, and to give thanks more.
saw my fav boy at tiang wang kang. deri. it has been one year since i last saw him. he has grown up. but the way he holds the 'twist' sign is exactly the same!
see......
last year.
this year.
help me to trust.
Thursday, September 14
oh man. i am TWENTY!
i am TWENTY. so old.
how i spent today:
1. slept till 1030
2. lunch at ichiban sushi
3. driving
4. guitar
5. teach tuition
6. surprise supper
7. replying messages of all the people who wished me happy bd. thank u all thirty six of you (ha, i actually counted). it always amazes me when i receive happy bd msgs frm ppl i never expect to. ppl i seldom see nowadays, didn't think they'll remember, but they actually do. so touched......
some pics of birthday two thousand six
(: here goes...
eighth sept-dinner at tony roma's with my family. combined bd celebration of mom and i. i love the cheese sticks there. super yummy, and super stretchable! it is a MUST TRY!
eighth sept-celebrated beverly, joanna & my birthday with team 2 & michelle. joanna has the same birthday as me!! just that she was born one year late. heh. had a gd laugh that day.
tenth sept-aunty anny & family came to my house for a 'surprise' dinner for me and my mom's birthday. NYDC cake!!!!! chocolate addiction!
twelfth sept-dinner at city hall's NEW YORK NEW YORK. with 3 buddies & lian kuang. we're reading the new york times. what's the shocking news?? is it the price of food?
fourteenth sept(actual day)-as i was happily teaching tuition, suddenly smelt chicken wings and heard ppl shouting, "happy birthday". it was my gang of friends. those i had dinner with at NYNY. haha... surprise eh!!! they bought chicken wings, wei's mango & cream ice cream (very very nice!), hershey's sundae pie and ice cream cake. wow wow wow... thank you the 4 of u special friends.
help me to trust.
Saturday, September 9
drained out
exhausted. nothing to say..
just thanks to team 2 and M for bringing laughter to my stressful day.
help me to trust.
Tuesday, September 5
haiz... this sem...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY B!!!!doing those graded econs assignments are driving me crazy. seriously. they are driving me up the wall. the questions are so difficult.. the lecturers think we are geniuses. they give us tutorial questions as if we have studied that module for one whole year or something. we just had 3 lectures! it's the super helpless kinda feeling whenever i do it.
but i thank God for friends. i had the privilege of discussing the tutorials with some friends. made it a little more bearable. also thank God for friends who lent me textbooks this sem! i managed to borrow 4 textbooks from different friends.
only God can help me through this semester. HELP ME GOD!!!! and HELP ME TO HELP MYSELF TOO! i must be diligent!!!!!
will write more about the batam trip when i'm more settled with tutorials. (: at the meantime, here are some pictures taken at Batam...
help me to trust.
batam'06 pictures
Children at Tiang Wang Kang and the cute little doggies.
The Sunset.
Children at the home.
Little boy with highlighted hair-at Gundap.help me to trust.
Saturday, September 2
gone to batam
away at batam for 2 days (:
help me to trust.
Friday, September 1
tough semester ahead.
though i have a rather free timetable this semester, the workload is much higher than the previous 2 semesters. i have to hand in graded assignments almost every week.. i don't fully grasp what is being taught in lectures, which means i have lots of reading up to do on my own. sometimes even after reading, i still don't get it. tough semester ahead. i'm already starting to feel the strain. time for me to wake up. Lord, help me be more diligent.. help me not lose focus on ministry and on my walk with You.
help me to trust.