Tuesday, June 30
beauty for ashes.

God can do wonders with a broken heart
if you give Him all the pieces.

-neil T anderson



to give unto them beauty for ashes
the oil of joy for mourning
the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.

-isaiah 61:3


http://www.spurgeon.org/sermons/1016.htm

help me to trust.



batam children.



















help me to trust.


Monday, June 29
His mercy runs.

one thing i must hold on to
when the road becomes too rough
God will never let me down
i have chosen solid ground
God is faithful.

it can be done
He has paid the price
His mercy runs to every broken life.

be willing.

help me to trust.


Wednesday, June 24
i need to be close to You.


Journey - Corrinne May

Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know You'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to You
Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will You break down these walls and pull me through?
'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to You



we're all on this journey.
on our way back home to where we belong.
with Him.


IN EVERYTHING.
by prayer and petition.
to God.

help me to trust.


Sunday, June 21
open my eyes to see.

if a father knew enmity would prevail between him and his son
would the father have brought the son into the world?
it could have been a sting that could have been averted.

a raging war in them.
will it ever be relinquished?

a highway with unlit lights going in paradoxical directions.
the distance accelerates as time evolves.

what solace is there in such as this?
none i would say.
none.




it makes me smile.
words of appreciation from them.
two boys.

it makes my heart overflow with joy.
a naughty boy a few years ago.
now he's grown.
a young man.
with eagerness i heard him open his class in prayer.
volunteered to read verses i heard.
God's amazing work.

it makes me know God is real.
reconciliation between two brothers.
from quarrels to talking on bus rides.
only God could have brought about such a change.

thank you God for allowing me to see these things.
God must have known my deepest thoughts and needs.
God never slumbers.




complete in Christ.
and in Christ alone.
no one else.
only in Christ alone.
my hope is found.
God never leaves.
He's always near.




tomorrow 2001.
jumped, left, remains.
down nine, the world, our hearts.
a decade minus two.
seems long.
yet not.




sevol, xs.

help me to trust.


Saturday, June 20
a timely story.

there was a man asleep in his cabin when he suddenly awoke. the Saviour appeared in his room and it was filled with light. the Lord said, "i have work for you to do." He showed him a large rock and told him to push against that rock with all his might. this the man did, and for many days he toiled from sunup to sundown, his shoulder set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the rock, pushing with all his might. each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, wondering if his whole day had been spent in vain.

seeing that the man showed signs of discouragement, Satan decided to enter the picture, placing thoughts in the man's mind such as, why are you doing this? you're never going to move it. you've been at it a long time and you haven't even scratched the surface. the man began to sense that the task was impossible and that he was an unworthy servant because he wasn't able to move the massive stone.

these thoughts discouraged and disheartened him, and he started to ease up on his efforts. why am i doing this? he thought. i'll just put in my time, expending a minimum amount of effort, and that will be good enough. and that he did, or at least planned on doing, until one day he decided to take his troubles to the Lord. "Lord," he said, "i have laboured hard and long in Your service, putting forth all my strength to do that which you have asked me. yet, after all this time, i have not even nudged that rock a millimeter. what is wrong? am i failing You?"

"My son," the Lord replied, "when long ago I asked you to serve me and you accepted, I told you to push against the rock with all your strength. that you have done. but never once did I mention that I expected you to move it, at least not by yourself! your task was to push! now you come to me all discouraged, thinking that you have failed, and you are ready to quit. but is that really so? look at yourself. your arms are strong and muscled, your back is sinewy and brown. your hands are calloused and your legs have become massive and hard. through opposition you have grown much, and your ability now far surpasses that which you used to have. yet, still, you haven't succeeded in moving the rock. you come to Me now with a heavy heart and your strength spent. I, my son, will move the rock. your calling was to be obedient and to push, to exercise your faith and to trust in my wisdom. this you have done."

-by Neil T. Anderson

help me to trust.


Thursday, June 18
so small.


help me to trust.



they prayed. You heard. i felt.


help me to trust.


Wednesday, June 17
on my way.


On My Way - Corrinne May

How many miles must I go till I rest in your grace?
I feel like giving up and letting go

There seems to be no end in sight
But I know I'll be alright
Don't give up on me, I'm on my way

If I ever get lost, I know that You'll find me
There's a cross on a hill
Saying, "Do not be afraid"

help me to trust.


Friday, June 12
attitude check.

sometimes when you really need help
from your family, your brothers whom you thought would gladly help
they end up not willing to
rather than feeling disappointed or rejected
one can learn to look to God to help
though He can't physically help to do the task
but He helps one to have a heart of patience
a heart without frustration
a heart without anger
but to have a heart of willingness.
a heart of perseverance.

help me to trust.


Tuesday, June 9
keen awareness.

in the Christian's life there is no substitute
for the keen awareness that my Shepherd is nearby.
there is nothing like Christ's presence
to dispel the fear, the panic, the terror of the unknown.
we live a most uncertain life.
any hour can bring disaster, danger
and distress from unknown quarters . . .
then in the midst of our misfortunes
there suddenly comes the awareness that He,
the Christ, the Good Shepherd is there.
it makes all the difference.
His presence in the picture
throws a different light on the whole scene.
suddenly things are not half so black nor nearly terrifying.
the outlook changes and there is hope . . .
it is the knowledge that my Master, my Friend, my Owner
has things under control even when they may appear calamitous.
this gives me great consolation, repose and rest.

a shepherd looks at psalm 23 by phillip keller

help me to trust.


Sunday, June 7
you've grown.

touched by her words.
she knows she has friends.
she knows she has God.

you've grown.

loves.
huggs.

help me to trust.


Thursday, June 4
fruitful labour.

last month.
during bible study on philippians with ailing.
the idea of - f r u i t f u l l a b o u r meant alot to me.
today, i heard of an example of one who has lived for Christ.
and who has indeed made her life on earth a time of fruitful labour.
someone whom God would receive with open arms and say,
well done my child.

she finished well.

a woman of God.
she has a heart for others.
she cries for others, not herself.
she ministers to those who are hurting.
her tender gentle spirit of understanding others.
when things get tough
she doesn't give up.
perseverence.

she has a yes heart for God.

when she is asked to take up a role
she doesn't ask questions like
what will i have to do?
what are the commitments like?
but for her
the question was
would taking up this role draw me away from touching lives?
if it was a role where she could touch more lives
the answer would definitely be
yes God, i will take it up.
a yes heart.
she wasn't afraid of her inability.
but she looked to God's ability.
even when she had cancer
when her condition was bad
she asked to visit another friend who had cancer.
this is a lady who loved
because God first loved her.
she gave of her life to Jesus.
to live is Christ.
to die is gain.

she lived like Jesus.

it's possible.
to live like Jesus.
i heard of an example today.

stephanie.
her strength.
her ability to see things from God's perspective.
it touched my heart.
it's painful.
yet she can lead songs.
she can speak with hope.
there'll be nights of tears for her.
but the inner strength she has in her heart.
i can see God standing behind her.
giving her courage to be strong in the Lord.

thank you stephanie.
just hearing your prayers
and hearing you speak
and hearing you sing
with such hope
with an inner joy
with a peace from above
it touched my heart alot alot.

so many thoughts
so much emotions
ran through my mind as i sat there.

they were such heavy thoughts
but important thoughts.
it made me think.
it made me reflect on my life.

she's an example of a woman who loved God.
who loved others.

when i get to heaven
i hope i can get to talk to her.

what will be said at my funeral....?

did i do my best to live for truth?
did i live my life for You...?

help me to trust.



did i live my life for You?

when it's all been said and done

when it's all been said and done
there is just one thing that matters
did I do my best to live for truth?
did I live my life for You?

when it's all been said and done
all my treasures will mean nothing
only what I have done for love's rewards
will stand the test of time

Lord, Your mercy is so great
that You look beyond our weakness
and find purest gold in miry clay
making sinners into saints

i will always sing Your praise
here on earth and ever after
for You've shown me heaven's my true home
when it's all been said and done

You're my life when life is gone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1llIIhBMCjU

help me to trust.


Wednesday, June 3
actions of love.

actions of love.
the simple things.


am grateful.
am thankful.


put on a heart-guard.


choose righteousness.

help me to trust.


Tuesday, June 2
God will help you want to obey

everyday the Good Shepherd asks, do you trust Me? do you believe Me? will you follow My commands even when they don't make sense to you? we sheep must give a resounding yes, laying all our own questions aside. God has probably taken you on some unlikely paths before, and you can almost be guaranteed that more lie ahead, so why not make peace with this now? why not just confirm right out loud that you do trust God and are willing to travel the unlikely paths because you know they are His best?

i challenge you to do this even if you don't feel like it. feelings follow correct behaviours, not the other way around. make right choices to honor God, and your feelings will eventually catch up. and though at first following God this way may appear to make your life harder, it actually does the exact opposite. it makes your attitude more in line with His, thus enabling you to weather whatever comes your way.

though i've tripped and stumbled many times along this most unlikely path with God, He has allowed me to understand what Philippians 2:12-13 means when it instructs, "continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose." in other words, it's okay to be scared that you might mess up. it's okay to be honest enought to admit you don't always want to obey. this is human nature. ask God to help you make wise decisions. ask Him to help you to want to obey. God will work in you to help line your will up with His only if you'll ask.

have you ever dared to ask this? have you ever dared to say to God, Lord, whatever Your will for my life is, that is what i want? believing God is not for the weak at heart. it's only for those who want to discover the rich blessings of walking close enought to God to hear the constant drumming of His heartbeat.

-lysa terkeurst


dear Lord, help me want to obey You.

help me to trust.


Monday, June 1
different talents.


help me to trust.