Sunday, March 18
about stuff.
about staff appraisal.one year ten months since i first started work.
i can still remember how nervous i was when i first started out.
wondering how things will be.
wondering if i would be able to survive in my first job.
time flew by and it's staff appraisal time of the year again.
being evaluated for the past year of work.
i've never liked staff appraisals.
cos it's troublesome to have to fill in all those forms.
but i now realize that such times are actually very helpful.
it's a time where i get to think and evaluate my own work.
it's a time where i start to think about what i would like do next.
it's a time where i share how i would like to see myself growing.
it's a time where i hear from my boss of my work quality and attitude.
i realised how much of God's grace has been with me.
hearing words of affirmation and assurance.
i've always felt that my work wasn't good.
that others around me are much better.
that i'm falling short, not doing well enough.
that i'm slow in grasping things.
that i'm bad at speaking and articulating.
but it seems like, maybe doing my best for God at work is what matters.
and somehow, He will shine through me when He desires to.
i don't know, i'm just filled with much awe.
of how He blesses me at work with wonderful colleagues and bosses.
He blesses me by giving me opportunities.
He blesses me by helping me with the work i've been tasked to do.
and in ways i don't realize, He has been guiding me.
in ways i don't see, He has showed favor.
i don't know what else to say, but thank You Lord.
Lord, help me remain teachable, remain humble.
knowing it's by Your grace.
about esplanade night.
was a night of being awed by the music produced.
the band was really awesome.
i thought the drummer was really good.
after that shannon told me it was his teacher's son.
jimmy lee's son - aaron lee.
who has been playing since young.
euns' cg members were there too.
it was a night of good company and music.
that strangeness can't seem to go.
i don't know why.
vic treated us to a very satisfying indian meal in little india.
thanks vic!
about love.
it's tough to love people when they constantly come into your space. demanding attention. but if we are always in control, deciding whom and when we will love, then we risk having a weak imitation of love. if we aren't open to our schedule being interrupted or our bank account tapped, then we might be fooling ourselves as to our own goodness. love gives. from book, when love walked among us. well, even the tax collectors love those who are lovable.
about youth ministry.
had a good discussion with pastor and ben.
sharing how we would like to see the youth ministry grow.
sharing the purpose and mission of the ministry.
this time we spent some good solid time in prayer before we started.
and i truly experienced God's empowering during our discussion.
we started off with nothing much.
and we ended off with something we all came up with together.
it was a common understanding and consensus.
united.
it was indeed God who brought us there.
keep us humble and broken as your servants.
about the new week ahead.
a new week starts tomorrow.
thank God it's monday - it's great living by that.
some of my friends are struggling.
some really need You.
Lord, be with them.
and help me to be the friend You want me to be.
help me to trust.