Wednesday, August 31
a rainy night.
as rainy as the weather.
angry.
wronged.
apologetic.
hurt.
did i respond in a way that glorified God?
was i too quick to react?
did i use the wrong words?
why is it that i always feel attacked by the words?
do i have to do some self reflection?
why must the words be so harsh?
am i taking it too personally?
am i the only one feeling this way?
why did a simple conversation end up that way?
why use big bombastic concepts that makes me feel inadequate?
isn't it true for you as well?
assumptions, connotations, outcomes, beliefs, context, truth?
guilt trip?
is that true?
why does this matter so much to me?
why waste my emotions and energy on this?
Lord. i give my raw emotions to you.
take it and refine it.
God, are you teaching me something?
Lord, help me to be calm and to reason properly.
Lord, help me to be meek, to be humble.
forgive me Lord.
teach me to forgive myself and others.
i surrender.
take away any feelings of coldness or bitterness.
help me to love.....
love......
help me to trust.