Friday, May 13
forgiveness.
glad the bus journey to work was smooth today without any jam at all.got to ghim moh 30 minutes before work started.
ordered coffee cos i had a late night.
sat at coffee shop.
read one chapter of mark.
took out my notebook to write.
reflected on the feelings and thoughts that went through my mind on monday.
wrote about asking God to help me forgive and to let God do the vindication in His time.
to stop striving to hold that bitterness or anger.
to let go of the feelings and thoughts that are not pleasing to God.
remembered the lesson of forgiveness in cg 2 weeks ago.
i didn't have anyone in particular i needed to forgive at that time.
i guess that lesson was in preparation for what was coming up this week.
the actual test came.
thank You Lord for reminding me that the person who has problems forgiving others is the person who does not truly understand how he has been forgiven.
i reflected on how God has forgiven me, and if God can forgive someone so sinful like me, all the more, sinful me is able to forgive others.
Jesus suffered not for His sin, but for ours.
He left vindication to God.
He did not fight for His rights.
what's my tiny trial compared to His.
He was meek.
Lord, teach me to be meek.
help me to trust.