Wednesday, September 29
shelter me.
umbrella.
sometimes i just feel like there's a whole load of responsibilities upon my shoulder that i end up doing none of them well. everyone's tired. me too. but who will take up the responsibilities that i have now if i don't continue doing them? i need to let go of some things. but who am i to ask to take up the things that i need to let go? is that imposing on them? Lord, tell me what to do........ all joy is lost in doing all these. yes, it's good to serve the Lord, but how much can i take physically and mentally?
shelter.
Lord, give me joy, keep me strong. help me only listen to the voice of truth.... and not to entertain these defeating thoughts..... i have been choosing to ignore the tiredness and the stress that comes along. but on this night, i am unable to continue ignoring it. i come to You... please. give me a break Lord. it's easy for people to leave, but why do i find it so hard to let go? it's indeed discouraging when people decide to leave, to stop serving. but i know i can't let my emotions be dependent on people. Lord, teach me to look to You and You only. Lord. i really need You.... shelter me.
help me to trust.