Monday, April 6
a visit.
=..........................(i tried to be strong.
but i couldn't.
i walked away.
to take hold of my emotions.......
a kind nurse walked over and gave me a tissue......
this act of care... seemed as if God sent her to me.....
uncle steven.
a different side of him.
a very tender and loving side...
speaking with such gentle loving care.
words of comfort and assurance.....
holding her hand...
gently stroking it...
he put nicely into place the very few strands of hair that she had left....
understanding her feelings....
telling her that elias and james are doing well...
that james has been good, diligent in doing his homework...
that elias came to visit while she was asleep and held her hand.
he wiped the tears off her eyes...
and told her that it's okay that she cannot talk. it's okay... it's okay...
she can still use her eyes, or her hands, or her head to communicate with him.
and that he will understand....
he held her hand and said, if your answer is yes, you can squeeze my hand.
so it's okay.... it's okay that you can't talk. it's okay... he said.....
he said, don't worry, the boys will be well taken care of.
he asked if she wanted to see her relatives....
aunty kia tuan moved her hands slowly and signaled no...
uncle steven assured her again, that he hasn't told her relatives...
and he'll wait for the time to be right before telling them.....
he said, if it's tiring for you to open your eyes, you can close it, because i know that even with your eyes closed, you're listening....
seeing him speak with such tender love just made tears flow uncontrollably.....
it's a moment i'll never forget...
never in this lifetime...
a moment of the love between husband and wife.
just last week, last sunday.
she was smiling.
sitting up.
joking.
talking.
saying she hopes to be at easter sunrise service.
today. today...
she needed a machine to help her breathe..
she look long heavy and hard breaths...
as if each breath took so much energy....
her eyes just looked blank....
but yet, she looked peaceful. rested.
she has Jesus.... she has Jesus....
God is by her side.
now and always.
help me to trust.