Sunday, January 1
thoughts
pride. selfishness. these words describe me. God has been good to me. maybe, too good to me. when things seem to be going down the drain, He would always be there to pick me out. there are uncountable instances of such happenings. God has been gracious, but i have been taking Him for granted. i'm grateful for His mercy and grace, my heart is filled with joy and relief each instance i experience it. but i fear that one day i will get what i deserve. how would i take failure? i don't know. my life has been overly good. it has been too good that sometimes, i forget the one who brought me there. i get proud of my own achievements. i seek recognition from others. this is pride. i know my weakness, i have been trying, i don't know if i have changed.selfishness - yes. i am. i enjoy familiarity, i enjoy comfort. i try to escape if i have a choice. life does not revolve around me. i am not the centre of my life. God should be taking that place. it's not just about me. it is about God, it is about others. i'm too impatient with people. i think i'm talking more than i'm listening. would i be able to tell when a friend is in trouble? would my friends share their problems with me? or would they think that i would not have the time for them? would they see me as one whom they can trust and one who will take time to listen to them? dear friends, i appreciate all of you for who you are, you guys are fabulous. sorry for the times when i have been selfish... thanks for the friendship. each of you who have stepped into any part of my life, thank you...
thank you my 3 buddies-cheryl, linwei, anna.
thank you the 3 oldies-desmond, sandra, terina.
thank you church friends-charissa, jan, charmaine, audrey, jean, rebecca, katrina, jane, felicia, ruth, debbie, jimmy, gwenneth, joy, and all the youths, young adults, aunties and uncles in my church.
thank you yfc friends- peiling, beverly, michelle, myrtle, candy, wailing, jolene, christa, lian sie, lee kien, xiuying, ching yi, joyce, boon jin and all the west area stds/personnel and all the other areas too!
thank you taggers-germaise, xuanzhi
thank you pri sch friends- yee li, hwee san, chensi, yenfang, yammie, shi yin, melissa and all from my class in qifa.
thank you sec sch friends- wanlin, collin, wanting, mingfen, peisi, yee chin, yiling, gwendolyn, shuxian and all from css.
thank you jc friends- zien, diana and all in s74.
thank you touch ruggers- xinhong, long hui, bela, xinyan, peiqing, shena, cynthia, charlotte, jolene, claire and all in sajc/rjc/tjc/nyp/blacks touch ruggers.
thank you teachers- guitar teacher, touch rug teacher (miss lee), touch rug coaches (serena, tabi), math tuition teacher (jackson), pri sch teacher (ms rachel ng), sec sch teacher (miss mae tan), jc teachers (miss alexis tan, miss sng, miss lim, miss thng)
thanks dad, mom, shan and ry.
help me to trust.